Someday or weeks have you ever wanted to just scream? I mean an all out "SCREAM"
I know this is kind of an odd thing for me to come out of the blue with but it is how this last couple of weeks has been. I have debated whether to post anything here but have decided this is my blog and it is my choice.
Before Christmas my folks made the decision that it was time for them to sell out the cows at the ranch, it affected me pretty drastically. In meaning the ranch has always been like a release for me, what I mean by that is the one place that everything in the world is as it should be. The one place where I can go and it's quiet (or somewhat), the horses and the cows, a little piece of heaven on earth. I guess the only real peace for me has been there to sum it up. So this was a major decision and one I can honestly say "upset my applecart". I have come to the realization that for my folks it is the right decision and the Best decision.
I truly Love you Mom and Dad!
Now a couple of month later it again has been a trying time in the sense that Three weeks ago we lost a friend Deb to breast cancer. My hubby worked with her hubby, and she had two children close to mine in age.
Then last Friday another wonderful lady named Delia passed away from cancer leaving a beautiful new grandbaby, daughter, sons and husband.
Then also last week I gained the knowledge that someone close to me (I will not release her name-that is her decision to do) has a Stage O. Now from what I am understanding and learning from my doctor ( he is wonderful not only does he treat me when needed he give lots of information when asked too) that this is a very Treatable and has a very high success of cure. This has relieved some of my "screaming so to speak".
Then as if that wasn't enough we found out another friend has discovered she has colin cancer...
Now on Tuesday I had an appointment to take our dog to the vet. To give some background information on this we Had gotten "Shadow" in 2001 as a puppy, my twins were 4 years old and they were with me and we fell in love with her and brought her home. She has been one of those dogs that you treasure.
Fast forward 10 years:::
The last month she had gotten a limp in her hind leg I thought she had gotten a cut on her pad of her foot so have been soaking and it appeared to be getting better until the last week. I decided it was time to take her to the vet, and was given the word that she had a very malignant rare bone cancer in her back hip and upper leg. We decided it was best to put her down, it has been a decision not easily made.
How do you end a friendship of any magnitude?
How do you know you did the right thing?
Further more Why? Why? Why? I would like to know Why we can send men to the moon and beyond but Not come up with a cure for cancer??
Thank you for listening to my ranting and raving. Thank the Lord for quilting because at times it is the one thing that brings a calmness to the world........
About Me
- Judy
- I live in the Black Hills of South Dakota with my husband Bill, 3 sons, 2 dogs,, 2 horses-now 1, bottle calves and Chicks. I love to Quilt. I enjoy Horses,Gardening, Flowers, Archery, Camping, Fishing, Bottle Calves and all things with animals. I started sewing when I was 8 for 4-H, and have sewed off and on since. I discovered how fun quilting was over 7 years ago. I still sew on a Kenmore that was a graduation gift in 1981. I have a New Kenmore 385.19, and a Viking 400, a Singer Treadle, a Featherweight. and a Viking Ruby. In February 2010 I purchased an APQS Longarm , and Love everyone of them. I taught my 1st paper-piecing class, it was such a blast!
your folks decision to sell the cows. I understand how it pulls at you, that the ranch is the center of what you hold close. My mother often told me "change is normal" so whenever I have a change I'm not comfortable with I think of her. She lives through so many changes, she was born before the depression and lived through it. Life was one big change in her generation.
ReplyDeleteYour pet--my dad often told me *none of them live forever*. A friend has a measuring tool for aging pets. One bad day-ok. two bad days-still okay. But when they start having three bad days in a row--life maybe isn't fun for them. Its always a hard decision.
Cancer. I think now they say that 2 out of 3 will have cancer at some point in their lives. I have two sisters. Does that mean two of us will have cancer? Or maybe all three of us? I think of this, but try not to dwell on it.
Go ahead and vent!! Blogging is therapy and cancer in all forms is the pits!
ReplyDeleteJudy, Your vent is perfectly understandable and healthy. That is a lot to deal with in so short a time. You made the right decision for your dog. She must have been in a lot of pain and you were kind and merciful to her. I'm a huge dog lover (Literally, we have great danes)so I know how hard it was for you to make that decision. We've ended up having to put three of ours down over the years and each time we made the decision because they were in pain and would have had no quality of life even if surgery could have helped. Your pain will ease a bit over time and you will be able to love another dog when the time is right if you decide to get another one.
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